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"Journel #3" by piglet_123
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12-12-15
heheh new journal okie cya <3
honestly idk why i liekekek yeleleo su much... he doesnt show any affection towards me.. why do i like him? hmm.. well i like the way he talks.. his attitude xDD his- imma stop now... im trying to talk myself
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OUT of this not in it... ;-;
12-13-15
*facepalm* I should never right in my journel when its late at night..
12-21-15
AYE ALMOST XMAS! Shouldnt have wasted that first page in my journel.. for.. that... XD Okie I have something
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SERIOUS to say. Sometimes when its late at night I get REALLY hyper (If you havent noticed xD) But my attitude changes I get all sassy and weird lol.. but i dont want it to change the way peeps look at me :PP buuuuut yah anyway thats been on my mind for a
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while......... Oh yeaaaahhhh I need the PERFECT time and the PERFECT place and PERFECT moment TODAY to talk to someone <3
Bruh >o< It aint gonna happen! Its 10:40 PM and uhhhhh... it... yah it.. normally leaves at like 10 ;-; it hasnt beeen on like at
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ALL. But I realllyy need to... ;-; But it hasss to be:
PERFECT place
PERFECT time
PERFECT moment
PERFECT setting
PERFECT perfect...
basically just the first 3. lol. Bai and wish me some luck </3
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12-22-15
lol last night it DID happen. I guess it was the perfect place? I guess it was the perfect time? I guess it was the perfect moment? D:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ------idrk---------
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ugh I hope its okie D:
today wasnt the best day either :I
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When the sun comes up~
Like it always does~
Its whatever forever~
Ya know we fallin together~
When the sun comes up~
Like it always does~
Its whatever forever~
It just keeps gettin' better~
A nice little tune ^o^
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Just cheer up the page ;3
12-24-15
CHRISTMAS EVE~ :D
HEY GUYS! Yesterday was sooooo funny XD So yolo was on his alt and was trying to act like he was five.. OOPS I mean 5 1/2 XD And He thought ashlee didnt know who he was even tho he had
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told her before... XD And Ashlee was msging me like "Uhhh isnt this Yolo?" and im like "YAS XDDDD" I completely lost it XD And Yolo didnt know that she knew who he was.. XD And He kept calling her "skittles gurl" and getting up in her face xDD And when I
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was holding an apple he went up to me and was like "I want" "Gimme" and im like "NUUUU" and Ashlee was all like "She wont give up billy.." and Im like "BRUH" and he was like "Who billy?" And she was like "Pigs bf" and im like "NUUU" and he was like
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"COOOTIIIESSS" XDD Im pretty sure I died laughing xDDD Im a ghost ;O lol jk xd and then later on when he was like "Ashlee this is yolo" she was like "Ya ik.." and im like "XDDDD" I was dying.. dont judge meh.. and then we were just kinda hopin around
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(this is where I REALLY died XD) so yolo was like "Ooohh look FeedMeStuff is skyping me :>" and im like "plz plz plz plz nu..." and ashlee was like "PIGS BAEEEE" and im like "NOOOOO" XD and then it just got CRAZY. Ill be back later, just got tired of
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writing and king came on.
12-25-15
Merry Christmas! Hay! :3 Wellll dont have much to say... but... one.. thing.. only.. one.. x_AboveYolo. New ship!!! *whispers* even tho apart of me dies when i say that... *ahem* Okie welll yuuuup thats itt baiii......
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1-4-16
HAPPY NEW YEAR! ❤
ilysm ❤
tysm ❤
its been such a great year ❤
Thank you to all my friends ❤
They mean so much to me ❤
I wouldnt be the person i am today without them! ❤
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❤
~HAI GUYS! So lets talk! Its been a while, eh? Okie! Sooo Lets get started :3 Well just now today me and Rafay and Mach were in the carshop (THEY GOT CARSSS *squeal*) And idk mach was telling a weird story and hes like do you guys wanna
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hear the rest? And me and Rafay at the same time said *cough* XD I was dying laughing lol. Rn im just talkin to mach bc rafay got abusively jailed and he left </3 But mach is really nice sooo.. :3 Okie cya yall!
SUP! SOUP! :3 So ash came on and I was
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just talkin to her :3 Shes really nice and has a funny attitude XD Cant live without any of my frands <3 Okie so we were just talkin and talkin and talkin xd So WOW I didnt even mention how yesterday I lost my invin >3< ITs not that big of a deal, ya know
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I can easily get the stuff back :3! But anyways, I had 600 dollars but I gave it to Rafay so he could pay for his ap :3 And he had given 100 back x3 And then mach was there so I just gave him the 100. Then I was broke lol. But I GOT 900 FROM THE ATM! That
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is 100 from 1k! Im hopefully gonna save up for a car or an ap.. Im not sure which one yet :3 So when I was talkin to ashleah yolo joined and Im just like "WASSUp" and hes like "YO YO YO YOOOO BOI" XD It was funny xd Then he said brb.. He didnt come back
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but wutevz >w< Welp look at that! 20 pages of this diary! :D Heh I need to burn these.. like srsly... :3 xd Okie thats all I had to say fo now, bbl! :3
1-6-16
❤
1-9-16
Heh, on the 6th I was very depressed. I
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was trying to cheer myself up.. Well I don't have much to say right here. Just a friendly hai :3 Okie welp cyaa
1-10-15
AH! Yesterday was awesome! I helped snow fix a problem, rafay got a car and called me a good friend for not being jelly but being
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happy for him, and daxx was appreciative of me staying loyal to him and hero as they were banned on vindex. Daxx is unbanned and hero gets unbanned in 7 days. Well today wasnt that amazing, but it was okie. Not much happened. Tbh I don't really know what
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happened... xD Welp imma go ❤ BAI!
1-17-16
Hewwo.. Rafay got banned.. Yolo is quitting.. Isn't this all wonderful news?! :D
1-18-15
hay. so i made a unban req for rafay but it didnt even matter bc ultiment denied it :D
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only bc I wrote it :I so snow wrote one fo him under his acc xD and rafay is like "HES A GREAT FRIEND" and im like "yeahhh" i gotta admit i was a little jelly ;p but Im just glad hes prob gonna get unbanned, bc thats all that matters. still no word from
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yolo doe. btw he changed his name to NuSkillJustHackz. i liek it :P but i rlly hope he isnt quitting.. sorry this is an informal journal writing, i was trying to switch back to more of a formal approach.. but yeah.. bai..
2-3-16
YAS! Just logged on and
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aparently dragon robbed the bank or something, so I got 200 dollars (everyone else too, of course) but I'm not even one who lost money! Well, I don't think at least x3 Okie welp, I didn't have much to say so... bai <3
2-18-16
Hay wassup. Rafay es
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unbanned!! <3 I'm glad... But... He's never on... I... Miss him... I've been so nostalgic these past few days.... I just... I want things back the way they were... When yolo's name was "YoloSwaggintin7" and not "NuSkillJustHackz" or "iCrazyCombo_" ... I
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miss when me, Ash, Rafay, and Hero would hang out on his server... I miss the roleplays we would do... I miss Mia.... I miss hanging out with everyone I knew in the shop.... I miss my corny conversations with Yolo.. I miss when I would hang out with Rafay
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... I miss when Rafay would protect me and I felt special... I miss the castle... I miss the roleplay we did there... I miss Hero with his corny jokes... I miss my sister macmoll.. I miss max... I miss being around him.... I miss being a doctor.. I miss
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how the rdm was everywhere on Vindex... I miss the old players... I miss Fluffmeed's bar and how Rafay would work there... I miss Greedo being warlord... I miss yolo being on his alt and acting like a five year old... I miss Mia talking about how much she
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liked Rafay... I miss Ash being so kid when we first met.. I miss myself... I miss icecream99... I miss feeling like people liked being around me... I miss Rafay being with me.. I miss the Frozen roleplay we did on heros server... I miss Hero being
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thoughtfull.. I miss myself not being idiotic.. I miss myself not being wierd... I miss Rafay saying how I was a good friend... I just want Rafay back.. No one realizes how much he means to me.. How special he is to me... How he makes me happy when I'm
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depressed.. He's so important to me and.. I want him to know that.. Everyone ships kinglet.. Only bc we are friends.. I appreciate our friendship so much.. I never want it to die.. I want h- I don't want to sound selfish but when he almost quit, I saved
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him mostly for myself... I can't go without him... </3 And Yolo.. He made me feel.. good.. And now he acts like he doesn't like me nor know me... I just wish it was normal again.. When we would talk.. When we would.. Show our appreciation for eachother..
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When I felt.. like.. he cared.. Now I feel Vindex is falling apart. I feel my friends are slowly leaving me. I need them though. Please Lord let them stay with me...
2-19-16
Just as I was writing Rafay joined <3 He made me feel like... a whole burden
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came off my heart.. I needed that so bad.. Thank you Lord <333 So yesterday ended up turning up okie, at the end :D I still miss Yolo.. ................
I want us to all go on Heros server again.. But.. It shut down.. I'm not gonna get myself depressed
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again, its not worth it. But having Rafay on.. He made me laugh when I was in tears.. That says alot. He ended up leaving to play a different game, but talking to him made my day 100% better. Plus its Friday, so Yay! ^^ I'm praying that Rafay comes on..
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and Yolo... And Ash... Okie cya <3
2-26-16
Hay. I'm tired. Ash got me in a sicky situation saying that I wanted to date this one guy.. But I don't xD But he seems like he likes me.. So.. I dunno.. Rafay hasn't been on in a while.. :( I don't think I
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like Yolo anymore.. I think I'm moving on.. He doesn't really come on anymore.. But I think this shipping stuff is getting to my head. Errm.. I better stop listening to it before I start falling for Rafay :/ Which WON'T HAPPEN BECAUSE WE ARE JUST FRIENDS!
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GOT THAT?? OMG! SOME PEOPLE DON'T GET IT. RAFAY HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME AND MADE ME HAPPY AND MADE ME FEEL LOVED WHEN I WAS WITH HIM. DOES'NT MEAN I LIKE HIM OR HE LIKES ME >.< Deep breaths... Deep breaths... It's okie.. Rafay doesn't even come on
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much anymore.. So no worrying I can't like him if hes not active?! Or not talking to me!? Right? Right.. 0.0
W0W reading all of that made me think I like him.. BUT I DON'T! GOT THAT PIG? GOT IT! >o<
3-1-16
HAI :D
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3-6-16
Omg I had to go that day xDD But yeah LovingLynn likes me.. But I duuun exactly have a crush on him. Ive been hanging out with jurassic and rafay alot lately. But EEEE they make me so happy <3
3-13-16
Hayyy Havent talked
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to jurassic or rafay in a while.. I think its kinda awkward between me and rafay cuz i said I loved him but it was a joke.. But.. Errr i dunno.. Its mai bday todddayy and ash is being so weird about it xD Okie imma go~
Hay. Birthday was so-so..... Well..
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I'm about to confess something I didn't think I would ever confess, nor I would ever think, nor feel. I never thought to admit this to myself, but here I am..
Deep breaths...
Yolo.. I just realized... I never had a crush on him. Never. I thought I did.
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But I was wrong. He hasn't been on in idk a month or two. This is how I know I didn't/don't like him. I haven't been missing him. At all. Which is weird.. But nope. I don't miss him.. likenotatall.. But on the other hand... Rafay didn't come on for like 2
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weeks and.. I missed him.. A lot. I was so sad that he wasn't coming on.. So er I guess I kinda like Rafay. But no. Like isn't right. I've always liked him...
I love him..
I can't believe myself, I feel like quitting. After all the times I denied
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kinglet saying "We're just friends xD" Which is true.. But I guess I want to be more than friends? I'm done. I feel sick. I don't even think Rafay cares about me anymore, I just need to move on.. But the more I try to move on.. The more I feel alone...
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Maybe I should tell him how I feel... No.. Too embarrassing x3 But I've been so awkward around him lately.. and he's been awkward around me... I'm glad he forgot its my birthday. I need to.. Stop.. I need to go. Now.
3-18-16
Good day :D Ash hasnt..
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Sorry rafay came on and I waz talkin to 'em. He is now pickle. xDDD Its his skin, don't worry I'm not crazy :3
3-18-16
xD HAY! Soooo rafay had a different skin and its keewwllio! I love talking to hiim. And ash is on rn but she ain't talkin to meh ;-;
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3-23-16
Ash is "thinking" about quitting. I can tell. "I unsubscribed from 75% of mc YTers" and "Now I know y Hero quit" "I used to sneak on but now I don't need to nor want to" Did you know ash that that hurt me? That you felt like u didnt need me anym?